Life can be insane. That’s the realisation that strikes you when you have made it through years of classes and assignments, tests and seminars before finally venturing into your last day of college. Unfazed as you would like to think you are, the end of college will bring a volley of nostalgia and bittersweet memories. Here are some very relatable last day of college wala emotions you and your friends will go through which isn’t possible to control, even when you guys are the ‘sakht’ gang-
You have loathed college in all those days and weeks, yet you feel sad how all this is finally coming to an end. For the first time ever in four years, you consider college also as being something of your (extended) family.
Naturally, you desperately wish for just a few days’ more of your college life. So much so that you end up getting jealous of the new kids on the block. You want to start college again anew like a freshman because you so badly want to just be there! You so wish the last day of college to be your first one there.
After the initial stage of remorse, your feelings does a sudden backflip. There is a sense of accomplishment that takes you over about having successful made it through the rough life. In a way you are proud of yourself for not having yielded to the lures that college life tries to rampantly bring unto you.
Even with all that volley of emotions, there’s something else that’s playing havoc with your mind. There is an air of uncertainty around you and you can’t stress enough about just how you are going to do what you think you want to.
You also will cease to be a student, emerging instead as one of the many job hunters in the market once you are out of college. Even with all the nostalgia beckoning you, the fact that you are an actual adult now who needs to take on the world headlong gives you quite the jitters.
Once out of college, you will also cease to have new friends and most likely encounter only colleagues your entire life. That’s scary when you think of having to dwell in a drab world after all those crazy years you have lived through college.
The last day of college also has enlightenment dawning on you. You realise just how this time in the campus has changed and evolved you into the person you are today. For better or for worse, but you definitely are a somewhat different person now than what you were when at school.
So while you are the confident personality now with a flair of her own, you cannot cringe at how demurely pathetic you were in your first day on campus. And how even that meek self had so confidently put up each memory on social media! Memories no doubt are priceless but when it comes at the cost of some really cringe worthy sights, you cannot help but *facepalm*.
Certainly, nostalgia isn’t the only thing that will grip you when you have made it to the last day of college. There also is excitement on your mind about what the future holds for you. The uncertainty of a new beginning brings also the anticipation of a different life, one that you can live the way you want to.
It’s your last day of college and surprisingly classes are suddenly not that boring! As you take your seat on the benches as a student for one last time you realise maybe it was you who were disenchanted and not your profs. They have always been there for you, it’s you who had failed to appreciate them enough.
You now know you will miss it all. Even the things you didn’t think you would. The very kharoos professor, the haughty topper, the irritatingly dumb kid and the many flashes of personality. But one place that will hold all the memories for you is the college canteen! The place that came to life with all the addas, that table that has been witness to many shared laughs and many silent romance sagas. You know you will never find an adda spot like the humble old canteen stall ever in your life.
You also know life will no more be a mostly- party affair. From the most anticipated freshmen social and the farewells (of seniors), from Teachers’ Day to even Valentine’s Day, you know the excitement will be amiss. And you are so not ready for that yet.
College is an emotion, one that has you binding for life. But beyond the connections of friends and crushes, pals and ‘just friends’, there also are some others who has been essential to your college life. Yep, the xerox guys and the stationery uncle. The last day of college will invariably bring some of such nostalgia as well.
Running off to the next class to lay your claim to the coveted last (or first) bench, nudging your way through folks to make it in time for attendance, sprinting through corridors to make sure you don’t get a chiding for being a bit too late, there are umpteenth memories that the last day of college will be vivid with.
You are happy that the torture of extended and extra classes will be over, that freedom will be real but you are also sad because apart from classes, college was fun and when college is over, the fun will too. You are too terrified of the new big world to be exploring its beauty.
You celebrate the lifelong friends you will treasure but you also can’t help get a bit sad over those you lost. The ties you forged and the ones you didn’t- all return to make you all the more emotional on your last day of college.
Most of all you can’t really believe that it’s indeed your last day of college! You could see it coming, you could sense the imminent farewell and the lingering freedom. But it wouldn’t dawn upon you as clearly as it would on D- Day. And that’s when it strikes you the most- it’s all going to be over! Much like a relationship, much like every good thing- your college life will be up in wraps just a little while from now.
It’s all so anticipated yet out of the blue that you don’t even feel like it’s your last day there. Those four years seem to have flown by just like that, even when every lecture and every brainstorming session seemed more than just a few hours. You are left perplexed at just how lost you are at the moment.
You hardly can expect to experience the same vibrant vibe elsewhere that had you enamoured by college. You perhaps have already lived the best years of your life and it’s quite a frightening though that they are all but over!